Sunday, March 15, 2009

Big Decisions

My new friends, Bedouin Soundclash (should I mention the free ticket to Soundwave?)

It's been a long time between cups of tea (metaphorically of course) and I'm really sorry for that. It's not like nothing interesting has happened to me, I hung out with a band for two days and turned 22, I just haven't been able to find the words to describe it all. The bushfires silenced me and since then I've been trying to reassess and re-evaluate the things that are most important to me as a person (as if I don't do enough of that already). I'm trying to spend less time worrying about the superficial crap that usually fills my mind and get to the real root of my happiness (or unhappiness).

I really want to thank everyone who took the time to comment on my last post, I really appreciate that other people would admit to feeling the same way that I so often do. I love that there are so many like-minded people in the blogworld and that it is so much easier to connect with people like myself through the internet. I still have a yearning to search for 'my people' in the real world though, and I've decided that the first step towards this is to immerse myself in a completely new and foreign culture. Like Japan. The connection isn't obvious, I know, but the idea is to take myself out of my comfort zone and try something totally and completely different and see how it affects me and how I grow as a result of it. Once I truly know myself, then I can find people who get me. Does that make sense?

So the idea is to teach English in Japan for one year and if I really enjoy teaching then I can always come home and do a Dip Ed to become a fully qualified teacher. As always I'm full of big dreams and no action, so my next step is to book the Teaching English as a Foreign Language course and get myself a job placement. It's a big, scary, insane step, but I really feel like it's something I have to do. Hopefully putting this plan out there on the big wide web will hold me somewhat accountable, don't let me talk myself out it!


Basht said...

thats incredibly exciting

Beth said...

Book in now!! I was so close to teaching English in Japan, but then got another offer elsewhere. Would be awesome. Japan is fantastic. In fact, I'm getting excited just thinking about it, and I'm not even going anywhere, hehehe. Good luck!!

Karolina said...

I admire you for having the courage to even make up a plan like hat as possible. I wish I could do that myself. Just get myself together and make a huge decision like that, but it all frightens me too much. But being in one place makes me unhappy, I feel that I'm stuck to the known and obvious plan that's waiting for me. Maybe I'll get the courage someday.. good luck!

many many sparks