Monday, September 22, 2008
This is.. what I want to be when I grow up
I think I've mentioned this before, but when I was younger I had four aspirations. To be a ballerina, a waitress, a model, or a flight attendant. I guess it just shows how high and/or humble my dreams were back then. I think years of being told I was pretty (what five year isn't) went to my head, and waitresses and flight attendants are always portrayed as glamorous in movies so what's a girl to do? I was always awestruck by ballet, but I guess my body didn't want to be the ballerina type, and I am still yet to see proper ballet on stage. I'm hoping to change that this year.
Anyway as I got older my aspirations changed. I wanted to be a journalist, a marketing/advertising executive, and finally a research psychologist. But now.. I don't really know what I want to be when I grow up. It's almost like I've hit a quarter life crisis and everything I thought I wanted in life has suddenly been replaced by this overwhelming urge to just run away and join the circus or be a gypsy or something. Is that normal at this age or should I still be wanting to do my honours/masters/phd and a working stiff for the rest of my life?
I guess the academic route has finally lost it's appeal. At school I was one of the "smart" kids, and being at a public school in the country that wasn't exactly hard. So I always wanted to go to uni and blah blah blah because I was so "smart". Now that I'm at uni I realise that probably about 70% of the reason I wanted to go to uni I was just because I wanted to keep that "smart" status that comes form having a uni degree.
So instead, when I grow up I want to be:
- in love
- well travelled
- a mother
- a good cook
- in a good kitchen (of course)
- my best.
And that is all I can really ask for. Sorry for the sopfest ;)
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