Saturday, March 1, 2008

And alone


I've become a bit of a loner lately. I didn't really realise or care about it until now when I suddenly have no boyfriend and therefore have lost about half of my social contacts to awkwardness and the problem of "who gets custody of the friends" issue. My problem is that almost all of my friends in Melbourne are either friends of his, or friends of my friend Michelle... who is a friend of his. So now all of a sudden I'm not invited to social events "just in case" it gets weird, and I'm really regretting not trying harder to make friends (of my own) at uni.

I just really wish I had some friends of my own that I could fall back on to at times like this, and I'm becoming more and more aware that the friends I have don't really fit that need as well as I thought they would. So I'm feeling a bit isolated at the moment, and while I love you webby guys out there looking out for me, I just really need someone to come over and give me a cuddle and a bowl of popcorn or something. That's all.

2 comments:

Bec said...

i TOTALLY know how you feel. I broke up with an ex about 3 years ago now, and I was in the same boat. Luckily i had 2 girl friends (who i knew through my ex) that remained close friends with me.
I joined a few clubs - photography and stuff and made sure I talked to other people at work I hadn't previously. I've now got a group of friends that are 100% all mine. I also found that I had a million "Acquaintences" but only about 5 truly good, close friends.
Hang in there, and chin up tiger. It's a tough slog, but you can pull through it :)

Tara said...

I'd be up for a hug and a bowl of popcorn anytime... I'm also going through this period right about NOW... It's especially hard for me bcos I introduced my best friend to his best friend and they hit it off and have been together for a few years now! So even my best friends parties are awkward, at least she still invites me though, which is more than can be said for everyone else who I thought were my friends... hmmm... but yeah, popcorn=yum :)